Inheritor of a Dying World
Initiatory Experiences in the Golden Dawn (continued)
as when you or a loved one is pregnant, you suddenly start seeing pregnant women everywhere.
With the elemental grades of the outer order, once you have started on the path, it is very important that you finish the work or you will be in danger of being unbalanced. This can give rise to a phenomenon seen on various magical internet groups – that of the person who comes across as decidedly unbalanced. This is because, kabbalistically speaking, they may well be! Again, in a good temple, or even on a good internet forum or list, it is important to try and watch out for each other and extend that brotherly or sisterly compassion to those who may be struggling. For it is almost guaranteed that there will be times when you will be struggling too!
Finally, the portal is reached and the gateway to the inner order beckons you. Frater I.U.S. says of his Portal experience;
‘It was as if part of my self was extinguished and I had no choice but to make drastic changes in my life to achieve the balance I needed to go further. I packed my bags, dumped my neurotic, dependant and violent girlfriend and started a new life.’
Whilst in the portal grade, all your elemental experiences are transmuted into a golden whole. Having thus acquainted yourself with fundamental forces and successfully bal- anced them, you are now ready to take the next step into the inner order and adepthood - where the real magical work begins.
The painter Henri Matisse, though talking about his own creative career, succinctly describes the initiatory process; ‘An artist must possess Nature. He must identify himself with her rhythm, by efforts that will prepare the mastery which will later enable him to express himself in his own language.’ As Magicians we are artists. The sephiroth are our palette and our Will is the paint- brush. By opening our minds to the wisdom of our higher selves, we can paint the Universe, transforming it and ourselves in the process.
In closing I should lke to say a heartfelt thanks and express my gratitude to those Fratres and Sorores who so kindly contributed their experiences to this essay, without whom it would not have been possible.
Icarus by Henri Matisse
© 2007 by Melissa Seims
With the elemental grades of the outer order, once you have started on the path, it is very important that you finish the work or you will be in danger of being unbalanced.