How to Increase Your Confidence- Part 3
awesome. We were surrounded. Kip, one of the pastors I work with in another ministry came and stayed with us that whole first day and went in with us when we first saw her. All these ways God used His people to demonstrate His love to us. All the prayers, they were really uplifting and totally strengthened us. You can see her healing was miraculous. God’s hand was so evident. Even unbelieving doctors who didn’t believe in metaphysical stuff as they told me, they said it had to be divine intervention, because they’d done everything and couldn’t figure out what to do. Even they admitted that it was God. So even though there are still consequences to bad choices on both of our parts – it wasn’t all Heather and it wasn’t all me – we came to understand just how much He loves us. If there was anything I could have done humanly to keep Heather from dying I would have done it. It’s incredible to me that God gave His Son. I couldn’t do it and I don’t think any of your parents could do it either. Even if you get irritated with each other once in a while, your parents really love you. Our heavenly Father only wants the best for us so we knew it wasn’t punishment. In other ways, there were so many was we saw God working in this situation. There was a nurse who came and told me her faith in God has been restored. There was another nurse who cornered me to find out about our faith. She was coming out of a bad marriage and didn’t have God. There was a friend who felt compelled to come up at 11:00 at night and set with me that first night knowing that I was probably alone there. She came and prayed with me. There was a chaplain at the last surgery who came to comfort Heather and she burst out crying saying that when she heard about Heather she called her sixteen year old child and apologized for not always handling things right. One of the coolest things out of it is she gets to be with me all the time now. Because she’s having to be homeschooled! Obviously she woke up from her coma. One of the first things she said was she told me she loved me and about a special dream she had.
Heather: When I was in my coma I had a special dream. I was somewhere and saw lots of
people. None in front of me but along the side. Jesus came up to me – I knew it was Him. I knew He wasn’t just a regular person; I could tell the difference. He said, “Hi Heather,” I was in shock that He knew my name. It was like He’d known me forever. Even though the Bible says He knows you by name and it is so true. I began to cry thinking, How many people actually get to see Him and I'm seeing Him. I can remember what He was wearing, His eye color, His hair, everything. I told Him I was sorry for jumping out of my mom’s car and for being so disrespectful. He put His hands on my shoulders and I asked Him if He would forgive me. He said, “I’ll forgive you and I’ll always forgive you. You’re so special to me.” Then He said, “I love you and I’ll always love you.” Then I started crying because I knew He was leaving. I'm thinking, I wish I could have gone with You. I have to go back to earth.” It was the most awesome things to have happened because you feel totally loved by the Lord. I’ve had to relearn sit, walk, swallow, run – everything you can think of I’ve had to relearn. That is not so cool. Learn how to walk a straight line without falling, stand on one foot. I was in my “second home” – the hospital – for six weeks, which was not cool at all. I have the confidence in God that He will keep on seeing me through all of this because why would He give up on me? Why would He bring me through the surgery they thought I was dying and let me die on the easiest one? Even the pain I’ve gone through – having no hair which is the worst. It might sound crazy to say but there are so many good things that have happened from this. I'm not glad it happened but I'm happy it happened because I changed as a person and now I have a really good relationship with my family, a pretty good relationship with my brother. We don't fight as much as we always used to. Even though He’s a huge God I can still talk to Him and pray to Him like a regular person. There’s a verse Isaiah 43:3 that I like, “But now the Lord that created you is real. Don’t be afraid for I have called you by name. You are Mine. When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty you will not drown. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned. I am the Lord your God, your savior,